far from the truth.

how can I get so far away.
just months ago I was so close.
time puts distance between us.
and every time i think I'm going to come back,
or that I'll finally be in your presence,
i find myself pulling farther away.
When will I realize that time knows no value, and distance isn't an issue.
You're always there... I just got to remember and take a moment to think.

When I'm away from you, the world seems distant too.
It may seem like it's all good, but it's really not.
Because when I'm close with you, I know I have it all.
I've lost things I wish I hadn't. Done things I know I shouldn't.
But you can bring back those things I've lost, and erase the shame I made for myself.
Even if no one else knows it.

I'm asking for another second chance, even though, in reality this is probably more in the thousands, or millions of a chance. Just change me.. I've forgotten who I am.
I need to find myself in you.. again.

what am i to do.

I ache inside for something that's not there.
I thought this would be my happy ever after, instead I'm filled with disaster.
The turning emotions, overflow within my heart.
and I knew this right from the start.

I'd be stuck somewhere between friend and more,
and god, do I ever wish I knew what was in the future.
But you've gone away, and whose to say
whether you'll stay true to what you told me before.

An emotion that sticks out, perhaps I'm scared.
I'm scared to know if you feel the same, like you told,
or whether I'm just something now thats old.

What did I get myself into again?
A returning cycle, a new toll on my heart.
God please just fix it, make it what i desire.
I need that burning fire.

right where i am.

When you come to an edge of all that you know, and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown.....
Faith is knowing that one of two things will happen;
There is something solid to stand on, or you will be taught to fly.


God doesn't call the equipped, he equips the call.

and he talks through the whispers, not through the yelling.

hear ye hear ye.

Who is Church for anyway?

Church is for the liers, the cheaters, the adulturors, those who cuss, those whose lives are falling apart at the seams. Church is for the 16-year-old unwed, single mother, for the people who are crushed and broken "beyond repair," for those whose marriages have failed or whose marriages are struggling. Church is for the dysfunctional families, the addicts and alcoholics, for those that have done jail time... and yes, even for the murderers.
Church isn't for the perfect people... It's for the imperfect, the broken, the bruised, beaten and abused, the soiled... and the sinner... because if the people in Church were perfect, they wouldn't need to be there. Church is about coming to God, getting to know Him, and being made new again (you know, like a "do-over" or a clean slate). It's about acknowledging that you aren't perfect and you need the gift of grace and forgiveness for your sins and mistakes which is only available through God's son, Jesus Christ.

take me as i am.

Take me as I am, use me how you will.
My heart belongs to god, and the guy i'm yet to meet, or have already met.
If you don't agree with that, then too bad for you.

beg.

Could I love you with my mouth like a church kid should
At the end of the day
My words get burned as wood
Oh, but I was good.

tonight, not happy.. thanks for making me wait for an hour then never show up. Really big thanks there, not quite.

Gonna be okay.

I dreamed and prayed through the night,
Please send some grace with your morning light

And he sent you along like a summer day
With a blue-sky smile on your funny face
And a bird flew by singing eveything's gonna be, ok yeah
So we laughed all day with the man in the moon
And we thanked the good Lord for the afternoon
'Cause he showed me His love by sending me you
And it's ok now
Everything's ok

gone away.

I had a dream about being raptured... and my teeth glowed, and everyone who was going up to heaven's teeth glowed a bright white. And the ones who weren't ... didn't. And I didn't like what i saw. People whom i loved didn't go with me. Hopefully I am wrong, and god shows his grace, compassion and mercy to them.

it's in the simplest of words,
its in the softest touch,
it can be known without being spoken,
you can be born with it,
it can overcome great heights,
it can be vast, yes so specific,
some know of it, most do not,
it can comfort some but put fear into many,
without it you are nothing,
with it you have everything,
it can make even the darkest corner bright,
it can fill you up with hope for a better tomorrow,
it's there for you when many are not,
it wants you much more than you want it,
it can make the weakest person strong...


gods love.




I found this and thought it was really true..
“Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than going to the garage makes you a car.”
just going to church doesn't mean your a christian, even if you live in the poorest of poor countries and your a christian, you may not go to a church but you still have that desire for God.