i can only imagine.

Do you know what it feels like to go through the thought process that maybe you best friends had just died. I had one of the scariest nights the other night. I was texting a friend and it must've been around 1 in the morning, and they were driving home another friend too. Out of no where in the middle of a text they stopped texting me. I got so worried. I thought maybe I had created an accident. Maybe my texting them, and having them text me back had killed them. I got so worried, i texted them like 5 times asking if they were alright and to text me back soon if they were. I thought maybe I had just lost two of my good friends. I was worried til near 3 in the morning where I finally fell asleep. At 4 in the morning, my cell phone started ringing, immediately I woke up and looked and it was the person who had suddenly stopped texitng me. I picked it up, and all I heard was nothing, no sounds, no background noise. Nothing. So I got scared even more, and kinda just let it be and went back to bed. In the morning I woke up to a text saying that the person had fallen asleep while texting me and their phone was left open. During the middle of the morning they must've accidently pressed something on their phone while asleep that made their phone call me.

It's just a realization that I'm not quite sure what I would do without those two people in my life. It makes me also realize what I would do if I didn't have all the people in my life I have now. Because at one point I didn't, and that was hell. I can imagine what life would be like without those people, and I don't want that. I want those people in my life, and if I have to fight like hell to keep some of them, I will.