whats the obsession over relationships?
I find myself always obsessing over that I don't have a boyfriend. I've been single for so long, that it feels like in order to be happy I need someone to step in and take the role. The thing is all the guys I like, either don't like me, or already have girlfriends. Which in a way, is not good wanting someone whose already taken. Then when they do become single, they're already liking someone else. It's like, hello, i'm right infront of your face, yet you can't see me, or just sidestep me, not even think about it.
It's possibly not even the fact that I don't have a boyfriend, it's moreso the fact that i don't think any guy likes me, and its also the fact that because since I don't think anyone likes me, it makes me feel as though I'm not good enough for a boyfriend. (Which is dumb seeing as i've had guys like me before, and yada) but still. It's the thought that gets put into your head, the one there that makes you think in order to be happy you have to be dating someone. Which is not true, i'm totally fine with not dating anyone, i just get sick of it sometimes. Being single, not attached. I'm more of an attachable person. Not a clingy one, bah, its just hard to explain.
and i guess this whole blabbing on is mostly about how I like this guy, who never seems to like me, but will always like other girls. It's like.. hello.. i'm standing right infront of your face. And it's not like he's totally like he hates me or anything, he flirts with me and stuff, which is probably a bad thing, because then it makes it harder for me to realize that I'm probably never going to date him. Hah. Gosh, i hate guys.