more song, ♥ by moi

Devils Got A Hold.

He's got the fallen angels,
he's got the demons of the night.
he's got the hand of temptation,
and a mouth full of lies.
he tries to destroy, steal and kill,
through his own thoughtless will.
he's got determination to ruin,
the spotless and pure, gods chosen few.

your unworthy of god tonight,
the devils got you cornered.
what he tells you is half true,
your life is almost over..

your fighting for the wrong cause
and the devils got you singing the wrong song.
'cuz hells not as pretty as heaven,
theres no gold paved streets,
if you listen to God tonight
he'll make ends meet.

God's the one who gives you life
he's the one who helps you dream at night.
He loves you for all the right reasons,
even when you don't please him.

the devils got a hold of you,
he's got you like a marionette.
if you don't scream out for God tonight
then you'll die a shameful death.

you're fighting for the wrong cause
and the devils got you singing the wrong song.
'cuz hell's not as pretty as heaven,
there's no gold paved streets.
if you listen to God tonight,
he'll make ends meet.

Dear Child, i am the truth, the way, the life
follow me and do whats right.
life's rough around the edges
but it's worth the ride if you're by my side.
I know it's going to be tough,
I know it's not going to be easy,
but i'll give you my undying love,
if you just come with me.

you're fighting for the wrong cause
and the devils got you singing the wrong song.
'cuz hell's not as pretty as heaven,
but I can mend this.
I'll give you a life worth livin'
if only you'll believe in..
that i'll save you,
you have nothing to lose.

God's gonna make ends meet.
make them meet.....
Tonight.

Yours.

Every day, every hour, every minute, every second.
You long to hold me, whenever i call.
in the light you are there,
in the darkness you still find me,
every waking moment you surround me.

your breath runs through my soul
filling up every aching hole.
in my sadness you weep tears,
for me.
society today, makes me forget who i am,
let alone do they know,
i am yours.

how could I be so stupid,
to forget that i am worth it,
especially in your eyes.
even though my struggles seem so hard,
and my burden seems so big,
I call out to you, and you forgive.

I'm going to surround myself with you,
I'm going to find myself whats true,
and even when the world weighs down,
and i'm lost, you make me found,
just remember who i am,
I am yours.

Because,
in the light you will see,
in the darkness you will shine,
every waking moment you surround me.
my struggles they are hard,
my burden may be big,
but I'll call out to you,
and you forgive.

remember who i am (who i am),
'cause I am yours.

I'm going to surround myself with you,
I'm going to find myself whats true,
and even when the world weighs down,
and i'm lost, you make me found,
just remember who i am,
I am yours.

Who I am,
Oh, who I am.
Who i am.
I am yours.

-by nikki, July 5th 1:24 Am.

whats the obsession over relationships?
I find myself always obsessing over that I don't have a boyfriend. I've been single for so long, that it feels like in order to be happy I need someone to step in and take the role. The thing is all the guys I like, either don't like me, or already have girlfriends. Which in a way, is not good wanting someone whose already taken. Then when they do become single, they're already liking someone else. It's like, hello, i'm right infront of your face, yet you can't see me, or just sidestep me, not even think about it.
It's possibly not even the fact that I don't have a boyfriend, it's moreso the fact that i don't think any guy likes me, and its also the fact that because since I don't think anyone likes me, it makes me feel as though I'm not good enough for a boyfriend. (Which is dumb seeing as i've had guys like me before, and yada) but still. It's the thought that gets put into your head, the one there that makes you think in order to be happy you have to be dating someone. Which is not true, i'm totally fine with not dating anyone, i just get sick of it sometimes. Being single, not attached. I'm more of an attachable person. Not a clingy one, bah, its just hard to explain.
and i guess this whole blabbing on is mostly about how I like this guy, who never seems to like me, but will always like other girls. It's like.. hello.. i'm standing right infront of your face. And it's not like he's totally like he hates me or anything, he flirts with me and stuff, which is probably a bad thing, because then it makes it harder for me to realize that I'm probably never going to date him. Hah. Gosh, i hate guys.