Yours.

Every day, every hour, every minute, every second.
You long to hold me, whenever i call.
in the light you are there,
in the darkness you still find me,
every waking moment you surround me.

your breath runs through my soul
filling up every aching hole.
in my sadness you weep tears,
for me.
society today, makes me forget who i am,
let alone do they know,
i am yours.

how could I be so stupid,
to forget that i am worth it,
especially in your eyes.
even though my struggles seem so hard,
and my burden seems so big,
I call out to you, and you forgive.

I'm going to surround myself with you,
I'm going to find myself whats true,
and even when the world weighs down,
and i'm lost, you make me found,
just remember who i am,
I am yours.

Because,
in the light you will see,
in the darkness you will shine,
every waking moment you surround me.
my struggles they are hard,
my burden may be big,
but I'll call out to you,
and you forgive.

remember who i am (who i am),
'cause I am yours.

I'm going to surround myself with you,
I'm going to find myself whats true,
and even when the world weighs down,
and i'm lost, you make me found,
just remember who i am,
I am yours.

Who I am,
Oh, who I am.
Who i am.
I am yours.

-by nikki, July 5th 1:24 Am.

whats the obsession over relationships?
I find myself always obsessing over that I don't have a boyfriend. I've been single for so long, that it feels like in order to be happy I need someone to step in and take the role. The thing is all the guys I like, either don't like me, or already have girlfriends. Which in a way, is not good wanting someone whose already taken. Then when they do become single, they're already liking someone else. It's like, hello, i'm right infront of your face, yet you can't see me, or just sidestep me, not even think about it.
It's possibly not even the fact that I don't have a boyfriend, it's moreso the fact that i don't think any guy likes me, and its also the fact that because since I don't think anyone likes me, it makes me feel as though I'm not good enough for a boyfriend. (Which is dumb seeing as i've had guys like me before, and yada) but still. It's the thought that gets put into your head, the one there that makes you think in order to be happy you have to be dating someone. Which is not true, i'm totally fine with not dating anyone, i just get sick of it sometimes. Being single, not attached. I'm more of an attachable person. Not a clingy one, bah, its just hard to explain.
and i guess this whole blabbing on is mostly about how I like this guy, who never seems to like me, but will always like other girls. It's like.. hello.. i'm standing right infront of your face. And it's not like he's totally like he hates me or anything, he flirts with me and stuff, which is probably a bad thing, because then it makes it harder for me to realize that I'm probably never going to date him. Hah. Gosh, i hate guys.

embracing accusation.

The father of lies
Coming to steal
Kill and destroy
All my hopes of being good enough
I hear him saying cursed are the ones
Who can’t abide
He’s right
Alleluia he’s right!

The devil is preaching
The song of the redeemed
That I am cursed and gone astray
I cannot gain salvation
Embracing accusation

Could the father of lies
Be telling the truth
Of God to me tonight?
If the penalty of sin is death
Then death is mine
I hear him saying cursed are the ones
Who can’t abide
He’s right
Alleluia he’s right!

Oh the devil’s singing over me
An age old song
That I am cursed and gone astray
Singing the first verse so conveniently
He’s forgotten the refrain
Jesus saves!


-shane & shane.