Well I'm broken, but I still see your face.

Would I believe you when you would say
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day

Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me  

Help me to win my endless fears 
You've been so faithful for all my years 
With one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do

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I've got fears, tons of fears. I don't know where I'm going in life. Whose going to be there with me. Or what i'm going to do while i'm going through life. It's like I need God's grade to just come and cover me completely. I want to be able to proceed through life without worrying about tomorrow, worrying if my relationship is going to last, or worrying if somethings going to go wrong. I guess I need to look on the brighter side of life more often.

I really wish I could go back to camp, sit there, and reflect on everything in my life. I wish there was like an on and off button on reality. Like when I want reality, 'click' I can just turn it on, and when I don't want it, and just want to be in my own world kinda thing, 'click' i can turn it off. If only there were such a thing. I miss summer, it was the best part of my life so far. Ever. I just want to go back to when things were nice and perfect, not now where life is all hectic and just troublesome. I want to go back to when I was perfectly in tune with God. Where everyone went and just was all for the same thing, and worshiped the same God. I miss the subtleness of everything, and being able to hang out without having to do work. I want everything that is not school at the moment. Everything that is just not having to deal with people I don't want to. I want lots of stuff, but that doesn't mean I'm going to get if. Let me get off the train of reality.

But I have a feeling that's not going to happen anytime soon.
until then,