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"You will have many trials throughout your life.
But, be thankful for them, and learn from them.
What other purpose do they have?
They're for us to become stronger through them."

This week has gotten so much better. I had an amazing day Sunday. First i missed church in the morning because my parents did go, but then later I went for band practice which was good. I know I'm not the best singer, and I don't know how to do everything, but with Gods help I'll get there. There's Gill who's singing as well who I can count on. Then that night I had an amazing night at work. Monday, I finally talked to Zak after a week and some. That's so difficult for me, I can't stand not talking to him for too long, even if it's just for five minutes or so. We caught up on each other's past weeks, and it just felt good. Then today I talked to him after school for a bit again, and had a decent day. For some reason I get the weeks where it's all crappy, and I'm just counting on God to bring a good day. Then the next week is all good, and I'm pretty happy. I guess sometimes I can down myself when I'm having bad days. I guess the good thing to do is smile through it all knowing God's there for me even when some people aren't.

And whats it like to lose a friend? I've lost many friends in the past couple years. Especially through highschool. People change, and I don't like who their changing into. It's not someone I'd want to be associated with. I was best friends with someone who constantly swore, listened to crude things, and did things I wouldn't be proud of doing. This so called "best friend" of mine would constantly put me down, make fun of me, and just be down right rude to me. Whenever I went seeking for advice, she'd give me her advice, to the point where it'd just make me feel even worse. Sure in the past we were so tight, but now we've grown so far apart. She still comes over to my house everyday for lunch, and I still talk to her in second and third period. But that relationship we once held is now diminished, and the thing about it is - I'm okay with that.

I know what it's like to lose friends, and gain some really good ones. Thats what happened at Plunge this year. I gained some really valuable friendships which I hope I can hold onto for as long as possible, with god's help. And at this moment, I don't really have any good friends at school whatsoever. The only good friends I have go to different schools, which makes things hard, but i'll learn to deal.

until then,